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| What Megan Means |
 You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. |
Jo's dad passed away last night.
I'm trying to be strong, for her, for us, for everything. I don't know what to do.
I hate hate hate this.
Married life is amazing. Absolutely the best decision I've ever made in my entire life. I love it. Picture post to follow.
Retired life is pretty damn good too. I was thinking of dancing to amuse myself, but I'd rather just be at home with my wife. I'm working at the Hershey Spa part time, and making a good amount of money, and Jo is getting a job there as well as a massage therapist. I'm also taking online classes to be a Medical Transcriptionist. I'm all for any job that allows me to work from home on my own schedule.
My puppy that Jo got me for my retirement gift is the most amazing critter in the whole world. He is in some of the wedding photos, so everyone will see how cute he is...
That's the update for now.
- Location:Toria and Eric's Apt
- Mood:
cheerful
This is me in my wedding dress and veil.
I'm getting married. In a little less than 2 months.
And it's pretty much perfect. We're doing a small get together on the 28th of April, in NJ. And then next year, we're going to have a huge ceremony and reception.
It's going to be everything I've ever wanted.
And I can't wait.
That's all.
Well, actually, I've got more, but that will come later.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
thoughtful
Megan
2.What colour is your bra?
I just took off a black Secret Embrace by Victoria's Secret
3. Do you straighten your hair everyday?:
Nope. Only on rare occasions, I like it better curly
4. Do you worry about the size of your boobs?:
Eh, not too often. I like mine. They are perky, firm, and I don't have to wear a bra
5. Are you the typical girl who's addicted to gossip?:
Yuo, and gossiping with gay guys is my favorite
6. What's your favorite girly magazine?
US Weekly, It's an addiction
8. Would you kill for chocolate?
Not so much. When I do eat chocolate, I want it to be the good kind though
10. Jeans or skirts?:
Jeans in the winter, skirts in the summer. I don't do shorts.
11. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?
Every once and a while
12. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?:
For dances and shit, yea, now, I spend a few hours here and there getting hot for my girlfriend
13. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?:
Not so muc
14. Would you leave the house without makeup on?:
Most days
15. What's the biggest turn on about guys?:
Not a damn thing.
16. What about the biggest turn off?
Well, since they don't turn me on....
17. Do you consider making out "unladylike"?:
Making out is a good time
18. On a scale of 1-10, how fun is shopping?
10. Buying things is a good time. I'm trying to stop.
19. Are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
I'm pretty girly-girl. But, I can hike with the best of them, and I didn't scream when when a bat was in my room a few months ago.
20. Do you think lipgloss is the best?:
I like a few lip glosses, I just got one from Victoria's Secret last week that is awesome. And MAC lipglass works
21. Do you HAVE to have a boyfriend at all times?:
Nope. No boyfriends. I have to keep my girlfriend though
22. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
I really get upset if I miss the Gilmore Girls
23. Do you obsess over your looks?:
I do now. I gained 15 pounds in a year, and now I have to lose it
24. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?:
About 45 minutes, if I'm getting a shower. 10 if I'm just running out the door
25. Do you wear sweatpants/pajama pants to school because it's comfortable?:
My senior year I did, it was a rite of passage.
26. Accessories make the outfit; true or false?:
Earrings do
27. Are you a sucker for skater guys?:
Nope
28. What kind of guys do you like?
The kind are really women
29. Is pink truely the best color in the entire universe?:
I'm very fond of it, but I don't know if it's the best color
30. Lip gloss a must?:
Chapstick is
31. What's your status?
Seriously Taken
32. Do you have a crush?
On my lady friend.
33. Bikini, one-piece, tankini or... three-piece?
I don't really wear them, but bikini
34. Do you take the chance on Halloween to dress like a whore?
I don't really dress up anymore
35. Ever dressed like a whore to impress a guy?:
Probably. In high school. I'd say I do at work, but the guys I see like upscale ladies
36. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
Sometimes
37. Has a guy ever given you something on Valentines?
Yea
38. Gold or silver?:
White Gold
39. The guy that you like/love/whatever, what does his name begin with?:
My woman's name starts with a J
40. Tight pants on guys; hot or gay?:
My hot gay friends wear women's pants
41. Do you dress up too much for holidays?:
Nope
42. Do you like wearing dresses?:
Sometimes
43. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?:
Not for YEARS
44. Do you consider yourself to be fashionable?:
Fairly
45. On a scale of 1-10, how much do guys confuse you?:
0
46. How many guys have you kissed this year?
0
47. Do you worry/fuss about your weight?
Yup
48. Do you eat junkfood?
Yup.
49. Do you work out?
Starting tomorrow
50. What makeup product could you NOT live without?
Chapstick
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- Location:Mich's couch
- Mood:
hungry
It's Prince Butt Butt's
First Birthday!!!
| Your Virgo Drinking Style |
 Your famously fussy quest for purity could lead to drinking less than other signs, sure... But it could also lead to drinking booze neatly (like sucking down organic wine or having extreme brand loyalty). You rarely get fully shellacked -- but, oh, when you do! Virgo's controlled by the intellect, but there's an unbridled beast lurking within, and they let it loose when walloped. It's dead sexy (and surprisingly unsloppy). As one Virgo friend used to declare, "I'm going to drink myself into a low level of intelligence tonight." A toast to the subgenius IQ! |
| Your Signature Cocktails |
| Many Virgos prefer clear, simple, untreacly drinks like vodka tonic or a real margarita, though you can be found drinking anything from unflinchingly downing Cuervo straight to smirkingly ordering a dirty virgin. You also tend to like bitter, low-alk guzzles like Campari and soda. However, you rarely change your signature drink once you've found it. |
| Your Celebrity Drinking Buddies |
| Cameron Diaz, Hugh Grant, Keanu Reeves, Nicole Richie, Bill Murray, Jada Pinkett Smith, Adam Sandler, and Ricki Lake. |
 | You scored as The Surprise! Dyke. Despite the dead giveaways, such as the tattoos and love of the L Word, people still seem to think that you're straight.
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2004 Survey
1.What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?:
seriously thought about doing porn
had a professional photo shoot done
went to stripper school
party all night in miami
spent time in a club's VIP room
participated in a pageant
sat up all night just holding hands
cried over the ending of a tv show, because it so closly mirrored my life
spent the weekend in a cabin, watching movies all weekend totally in love with the idea of being alone with someone
went to animal land
danced in the Poconos
danced in a club with my friend
traveled to work at a strip club
went to a wedding of a friend (I'm old enough that people are getting married?!?)
had sex on a beach with michelle
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?:
I made some last year, but I don't think that I kept them. I have a few, but I'm not going to write the down. Everytime I write them I don't keep them.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?:
No.
4. Did anyone close to you die?:
No.
5. What countries did you visit?:
None. I suck.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?:
Better friendships. Being settled. Money.
7. What date from 2004 would you like to erase from your memory, and why?:
There are a few of those.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?:
Performing in front of people
9. What was your biggest failure?:
I honestly have no idea
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?:
Nope
11. What was the best thing you bought?:
Prince, my puppy
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?:
My family
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?:
Too many people to count
14. Where did most of your money go?:
Drugs and other stupid shit
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?:
I'm not really the kind of girl that gets really, really, really excited. Talking about having kids, I guess, although that has been put on the back burner for now.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?:
Cocky.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
- happier or sadder? happier
- thinner or fatter? the same
- richer or poorer? Richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?:
Traveling (for fun,) Working, Spending time with friends
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?:
Less being lazy
20. How will you be spending Christmas?:
2005 I'll be spending Christmas with Michelle, at our place. No running around.
21. Favorite song of 2004:
Don't have one
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?:
Yup.
23. How many one-night stands?:
Um. 1.
24. What was your favorite TV program?:
Sex and the City
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?:
I don't know if hate is the right word...
26. What was the best book you read?:
I read a lot of good ones
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?:
I dunno... I'm not a huge music person
28. What did you want and get?:
a puppy.
29. What did you want and not get?:
So many things
30. What was your favorite film of this year?:
There were a few that I liked... I can't remember them really... The newest Harry Potter...
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?:
Hung out with Michelle and CJ, CJ stole tomatoes for me, drank wine, did donuts in the lawn, 22.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:
Money.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004:
Jeans and tanks, just like always.
34. What kept you sane?:
My woman (when she doesn't make me crazy,) some drugs, alcohol, my mother, books, work.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?:
Angelina Jolie, or Jenna Jameson
36. What political issue stirred you the most?:
Women's human rights
37. Who did you miss?:
a few people
38. Who was the best new person you met?:
CJ amuses me. Natasha does too... I met too many people to count, but didn't really connect with that many of them
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
You have to work hard for what you want, and you can't let other people's opinions have too much of an impact on you.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I'll get back to you on that one.
And of course, I had to get this one... It's not enough that we have the same makeup or wardrobe, we have to get the same quiz results as well.
You are Leisha Hailey!
versitile, and always willing to explore new
territory. you have been in feature length
films such as All Over Me, and the television
show "The L Word" Not to mention the
fact that you were the frontwoman of the
Murmurs. You have also been seen on the arm of
fellow icon, KD Lang.
Which Lesbian Icon Are You?
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I don't usually do this kind of stuff. But this one looked fun.
Stolen from
Comment in my journal and...
1. I will tell you what song reminds me of you.
2. I will tell you what celebrity/public/fictional person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
3. I will give you one word that I associate with you when I think of you.
4. I will tell you what colors I associate with you.
Then steal this for your journal and make someone else's day as well.
If you want you can do the same for me as well. :)
You are a high femme. Your dress and carriage
embody everything feminine. Your beauty, grace
and delicacy attracts both men and women.
You've taken 'Princess and the Pea' to heart.
Camping? Manual labor? Feh! Never! If it
interferes with your right to wear Italian
pumps and designer dresses, forget it! You're
all about the charm. You may have a heart of
gold, but you use a lot of jewelry polish to
keep shiney. Any dyke who takes you on is in
for some work. You expect the best and nothing
less will do. You could take or leave this gay
& women's rights stuff because you have no
trouble getting your way without it.
What is your Dyke Rating?
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I watched Great Expectations last night, actually, this morning, when I couldn't sleep... It's one of my favorite movies. I love it, always have. The idea that she's so cold, I suppose that I may have identified myself with her before, but not so much anymore. Maybe still, I see a large aspect of myself in her...
And then Mich and I were browsing through my computer and I found this poem, which I think kinda fits the whole idea of the movie. I think that Dove showed it to me for the first time... but I'm not 100% certain.
I love this poem... so I thought that everyone should see it. It's not really me now, but I still identify with it to a point.
But anyway...
Inner Workings
By: Rod McKeur
I have seen you
when your smiles and frowns
were so tied up and intermingled
that none – not even you
could have said
with any sureness
what face you were giving
to the crowd
I have walked with you to subways
when the parting was difficult
and less than 20 minutes later
been with someone else
and loved you none the less
I have spied on you
and looked accusingly
when I myself, knew well
that I was in the wrong
I have wept for you
about you
and one time with you
I have shared your secrets
and kept private
secrets of my own
I have fought with you
and over you
loved you and disliked you
in equal parts and at the same time
I have thought that I would die
if you failed to turn up
on some preselected night
and then you didn’t
wished I would
I have loved you
never asking if I should
I have trusted you
not caring if I could
or couldn’t
In company
with strangers or your friends
I have smiled and gone on smiling
when I thought no single smile
or grin
was left inside me
If we were unhappy
with one or the other
why shouldn’t it be
just our concern
I have watched you play
with other people’s children
and felt they were our own
I’ve heard you hum
some made up tune at breakfast
and watched you killing time all day
while you awaited killing me at night
I have lied to you
for no good reason
I have troubled you
and even when I knew it
sometimes that didn’t make me stay
The things we do in love’s name
never stop surprising me
I’m amazed that love can live at all
through all the subterfuge
pass through all the barricades
stumble over all the obstacles
we construct and put up in it’s way
The first seed
wherever planted
must have been a hearty strain
Just now
what kind of passion
stirs inside me
I can’t say what I feel for you
and it’s as much love
but whether it’s because I feel you leaving
slipping from me day to day
or because I need, depend on,
want just you
I have no way of knowing
Our lives together
have become so knotted
muddled up
that who’s to say
where the heart ended
and habit started to open up?
I love you – yes
But I don’t mean for you to know it.
- Mood: contemplative
We went out to dinner tonight, but it was so noisy that we ended up leaving earlier than expected. So much for having a few drinks tonight.
I'm almost starting to feel like myself again, which is absolutely a good thing. I think that I just need a few days to recoup after work.
We still have no fucking clue what we are doing for Christmas, but frankly, I don't care, because I hate the holidays.
Tomorrow we are going to Mich's sister's house for food and chatting. It will be the first time that just the two of us have gone to hang out, but I think that it will work out fairly well.
I think that Dove, Mich, and I might go into Woody's this Wednesday night, I want to get all prettied up, and if Dove is there, at least I'll have someone to dance with, since Mich just wants to drink. I'd much rather go to Sister's, but Dove can't get in, so we'll have to make do with what we've got to work with... Anyone else want to go?
Also... I'm thinking about making a work related journal, where I post about my appointments and whatnot... Anyone here want to read it? I won't post the name, so people will have to email me for it.
I also haven't decided if I'll have it join any of the sexworker groups yet, because my writing style is so obvious.
Anyway... I'm going to go and poke around a little bit.
Later,
~Blue
- Mood:
blah - Music:mich playing super mario bros 3
My legs are all bruised, so I went tanning today, and now I'm all pink. Thank god for black lights.
I've found that I'm really getting better at getting dances. I'm quite proud of myself.
I'm sleepy, and my back and legs hurt like a bitch, so I'm going to go to bed.
Everyone please send me lots of money thoughts this weekend... I need them! :)
Oh, yea, and, anyone have any ideas for my Halloween costume? I have to have something for next weekend, because I'm working.
- Mood:
tired
mich is heating up spaghetti for me. it's not the good kind... but it'll do, 'cause we are poor right now.
we could've had more money, but i was a bum, and didn't go to work today. driving 2 hours just wasn't going it for me.
on the bright side, my nails look really good. really really good.
i was at a new club this weekend, i got lots of dances, which makes me quite proud of myself, and, i also have someone coming in sometime in the next two weeks to do a 1/2 hour VIP. it'll be my first one ever, believe it or not. he emailed me today to let me know that he is still interested.
in case you haven't noticed, i have nothing important to say, at all. i just feel like making a post.
and now i'm done.
nighty night all.
I've been looking up stuff about marriage and adoption, but it's starting to make my head hurt, so I thought that I would take a break for a bit.
We have to have 2 witnesses to go with us to Canada, so that will take a bit, because it has to be during the week. My mom has about 10 days off in the middle of November, so perhaps then? And then, on top of it all, it's going to take 32 weeks to get our actual certificate. Blah. I think that we are going to go up to Toronto, I've been there before, and I liked it.
It all just pisses me off that we even have to go through this much bullshit. It shouldn't be this difficult. We love each other, want to be together, why does it have to be so complicated?
And, I know that it sounds a bit old fashioned, but I'd really like to be married before we have a child. Not that our child could ever think that he or she was an accident, considering all of the other work that we have to go through for them, but still, it just soothes me a bit. One of the things that always gave me peace when I was a kid was knowing that my mom and dad got married before she got pregnant with me.
I'm starting to yawn... Time to go look for Dr.'s now.
Our plan:
Go up to Canada sometime in the next few weeks, get married. After that, find a Dr. that works with dykes. Get settled in a place. Mich is going to start working again, I'm going to dance on weekends, but the money that I make will be only used for baby-type stuff and for our reception. Find a sperm bank, most likely here on the East Coast, so that we can meet with the people. Continue setting up the other job that I've been working on, but only as a higher up, not as a worker.
It's going to be expensive, and complicated, to have a baby, but we are totally up for the challenge.
We have a stack of books and websites to go through.
I fully realize that this is going to take getting used to for some people. But just because you haven't heard about it doesn't mean that we haven't been discussing it. And it is what we want. Support us, or don't, but we don't want to hear any bullshit. We're big girls. You might not think that we are ready for it, but we are. And those of you that really know me should know that this is what I've wanted for a long time. And I've found someone that loves me, and that I love, and that's all I need.
- Mood:
loved
